Forsaken Fairytales


There's good days, there's BAD days and then there's BLEH days (which could go either way with the slighest of pushes).
Yesterday was one of those BLEH days...
And so far, today has been a BAD day! I had a dream about him last night. *Sighs deeply*
Dream of holding him again, of being held in his arms again. Of his gentle kisses and wispy touches. Of his sweet-nothings in my ear, Of his deep sighs squeezing my insides. Of him wanting me passionately again, Of US entangled in silken sheets...
Just when you think you are OKAY, you end up right where you began. Circle of Pain! 
So, I began to wonder..Has he really changed? In my mind's eye, YES! In reality, probably not! All I know is the memory of him in my mind is in constant battle with his reality. When people wake up, they really wake up-don't they? Not a moment of stagger! Just bolt upright and straight, like IT *never* existed!
They walk away from you so callously, without so much as a second look. Maybe it'd make you feel a whole lot better knowing that they were experiencing the same pain too, that you weren't the only one in it all alone. That they are suffering as much as you are, somehow that'd make it all OKAY! You look at your phone a hundred times, check your email a thousand times...and NOTHING! Thats when it hits you, you are all ALONE in it! Feeling betrayed and abandoned. If only, words didn't have so much power. If only, people realize the effect their words have. If only, people stuck to their words. If only, people didn't live in dreams. If only, dreams didn't hurt. IF ONLY....
He's GONE...
Not *Just* Any Girl TO Just Any Girl...

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