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"He has this power. He reminds me of Sirius Black from Harry Potter. The adult with the heart of a child, and mischievous eyes, roguish face, charming smile and disarming voice. He has a magnetic personality. People are drawn to him. They trust him, immediately. He’s got an artist’s touch. He treats everything he touches as if it is the world’s most beautiful sculpture. He makes me laugh and All the tension and madness from my whole day just melts away. It’s been a while since I’ve talked about it. How do you stop yourself from falling in love with a man you dont spend each day with, but seem to know every turn in his face and every emotion behind the voice. Tough internal battle, I’ll tell you that :)" Has anyone ever loved you so much that they would set the whole world on fire if they saw tears in your eyes? Has anyone ever loved you so much that they would live their entire lives just with the memory of you? Has anyone ever loved you so much that they would go through all

O’ My Sweet Lover, Long is the Night Passion is the Game Entwined in love’s embrace Let this desert quench its thirst tonight Sweet whisperings of thy name, Escaped its bondage with no shame, Oh wind, I plead Let it pierce only my lover’s beat, For If not, it’ll put me to faze. Candles burn, flicker and flash, Solemn vows taken in darkness caress Songs of body, mind and soul All my gifts he gave unto me, Left me with love’s own sweet essence. With your name on my tongue, I’ll go to the other world, All their questions I'll answer with your name, The judges and saints will understand nothing, For what my heart truly seeks, I find in you. Only with you do I find understanding, The karmic bond eternal seeking a solution to my cravings, Only you truly have the answer, For you alone hold the key, To feed from the Scarlet Delight. For I am the Queen of the darkest passions, You reign as The King. -Copyright Apr 12, 2005

Vidhata talapuna prabhavinchinadi anaadi jeevana vedam...OM... Vidhata (The Supreme Being, according to some schools of thought on Hinduism, OM) - Through the vibrations of OM (vedam = eternal, something that doesn't have a beginning or an end is compared to the universe) the entire universe is said to have emerged. Prananadulaku spandananosagina aadi pranavanaadam...OM.. Prananadulaku = Living Beings Spandananosagina = Heartbeat/individuality Pranavanaadam = First Sound (Also, OM) The birth of all living beings, the one that sustains life through our heartbeats is also through the pranavanaadam (OM). Kanula kolanulo pratibimbinchina viswaroopa vinyaasamm... The entire universe (vishwaroopam, also can be referred to OM again) is reflected (pratibimbinchina = counterreflections) in the pools of our eyes..Vinyaasam = one of the 13 lakshanas of raaga Yedakanumalalo prathidhwaninchina virinchi vipanchi gaanam... From the depths of my heart echoes the chanting of OM, composed by the Cre

Pain..daggers, slit my wrists, blood on the floor-crimson red Making love to daggers, daggers resting at peace Numbness, spinning real fast, dizzy..flashing lights Squeeze my heart, sucking the life away..choking Stinging eyes, tears of blood..aching pleasures Cold rigid body..frozen emotions, frozen heart, frozen blood Smashing heads/brains, whirlpool pulling u down deeper, drowning Quicksand-taking over, sinking fast No rescue, no haven, no safety...no shore Alone..sea of warm blood and salty tears Corrosive, eating away at your flesh.. Acid, burning u alive No feeling, only numbness.. Pain..power of habit Current Mood: Blehhhhhhh ~ Blank ~ Current Music: The Outcast By Dropkick Murphys

Love Sonnet XVII I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz or arrow of carnations that propagate fire: I love you as certain dark things are loved, secretly, between the shadow and the soul. I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries hidden within itself the light of those flowers, and thanks to your love, darkly in my body lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth. I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where, I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close. - Pablo Neruda

"No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true. Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary." Do you LIVE such a LIFE? :) Current Music: Zindagi Ka Safar, Hai Yeh Ka

Watching "Wizard of Oz" right now, love that movie. A famous scientist once quoted "Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited to all we now know and understand, while imagination embraces the entire world, and all there ever will be to know and understand." - Albert Einstein. -A man without imagination is like a bird without wings. Considering I somewhat have a vast imagination, its obvious I'd love "Wizard of Oz" and "Alice in Wonderland," they are not just children movies :) Current Music: Over the Rainbow - Wizard of Oz Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high. There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby. Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue. And the dreams that you dare to dream Really do come true. Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far Behind me. Where troubles melt like lemon drops, Away above the chimney tops. That's where you'll find me. Somewhere,

Just took a hot shower...sometimes, don't you wish you could wash away the thoughts racing through your mind like the dirt on your body? HUH! Too far-fetched I guess. Thoughts are crazy today. Wish I could put them into perspective, so here it goessssss.......(I hope this blog thingie doesnt have a word limit, lol) 1). I keep telling people, "once something is lost thats when you feel and experience true feelings and those will form enough basis for your decision." I wonder sometimes why it has to be that way? Why can't people just understand the situation and not have any doubts. Maybe it is human tendency to do so. In addition, if I am placed in that situation as a normal person, I would probably act the same way as well. Who knows? Once again, unless I am in that situation I cannot help but merely watch it and be a viewer rather than doer! 2). Life sometimes has the hardest choices. On second thought, it always does. It is amazing if a reason is strong enough to ho

Dear Stitchu, I know that we had an agreement that we were never to surface these four years. We apologize for this intrusion. Desperate times call for desperate measures, therefore, we are typing this in hopes that you read it later on and take some decisive action. So much has happened, so much passed by and the longer summer days are too short. Not a day goes by now that we don't think of the good old days. Why do you think this reminiscing means that we are getting old and senile? This is probably very normal for everyone who will not be young much longer. What is so great about being young anywayz? Why the paranoia? It gives us a headache. Did you think you were fooling us, when you stay up late till 3 chatting and using our energy and resources, putting the alarm for 7:00am hoping to wake yourself up? Over the years and subtly, we have tried to remind you that stressing at the last minute is unhealthy and ruins your sleep pattern and gives us a migraine! Time and time again,

"Om Bhur Bhuvah Svah Tat Savitur Varenyam Bhargo Devasya Dhimahi Dhiyo yo Nah Prachodayat." The meaning of this Mantra:  O God, the giver of life, remover of pains and sorrows, bestower of happiness, and Creator of the Universe; Thou art most luminous, pure and adorable; We meditate on Thee; May Thou inspire and guide our intellect in the right direction.